Not yet please!!
So a while ago I asked the question if it was possible to retrain a girl (me) who can only cum from clitoral stimulation to orgasm from penetration alone.
https://eveadams01.tumblr.com/post/168556656891/kinkkitten-eveadams01-retraining-if-a
I had some great responses.
I mentioned it to him in passing and at first he didn’t think it was achievable for me. Then he mentioned it again and said maybe it was something we’d look at at some point.
Tonight he said he feels like we’ve been training me to respond to the wrong thing. He said we should be training me to orgasm through penetration.
Kissing my neck, nibbling my ear he was telling me how wonderful it would be if I came from his cock inside me and nothing else. Didn’t I agree.
I did. But I begged him.
Not yet please! I don’t want to have to go without for as long as it will take to retrain me. Selfish I know. But we have not had long enough of the new regime of the only touch I feel is his as we’ve had two months with two orgasms and sickness and Christmas and surgery that we haven’t had enough time to fully enjoy this new set up.
I’m not sure if he agreed but he did say we need to spend more time getting me over the fear of not performing (i.e. cumming quick enough) well enough before we can try the next stage.
Tonight I was close to cumming in seconds when he shifted his finger position. I moaned how good it felt, how I didn’t want it to end. I got told off then. “Don’t hold out on me. That’s not allowed”
I’m not allowed to enjoy the process. I need to cum as fast as possible when he permits me an orgasm. It’s not about my enjoyment. It’s about getting there when he says so.
A month of denial over in seconds because he decided it. Only to start again. A month of denial to receive a few seconds of touching. No teasing, no edging. And nothing in between.
Just denial then a fast orgasm. Over.
I came tonight. Not as quick as he would have liked. But I did cum. He didn’t stop touching after I came. I squirmed and cried ‘I came I came, I’ve cum, please’ he always knows when I cum so I didn’t understand.
He just laughed at me and said ‘I know, I was just making sure it was all out’. As he kept on rubbing. MEAN! I now feel very sorry for girls who experience forced orgasms. It was so sensitive. But yes he got it all out.
The sex wasn’t as gentle as we had planned. A month of no sex plus an orgasm resulted in me being virginally tight and it took a few thrusts till I could take him fully. The tightness (plus my gothic look) had him excited and after checking I was ok, he went for it. Fuck it was good.
I got a neck rub, he got a shoulder massage and a head rub. There was kisses and cuddles and talking and plans for the future and lots of vanilla shit. But it was amazing.
Back on no touch again until he touches me again. God I hope he touches me again. I’m not ready for the next stage. Not yet… please!